Seattle

We are in Seattle now and have been for the past three days. (I might have mentioned this in an earlier post but my mommy brain makes me forget things every now and then.) We are scheduled to meet with a "pediatric developmental specialist" that has been referred to us by several other parents who have children with special needs. The medical community in Missoula, albeit supportive and sympathetic, has not provided us with any answers concerning Cale's diagnosis. This is both a blessing and quite frustrating. It is a blessing because we don't have a diagnosis that gives us a future full of hardship and grief, because for now we still have hope that one day Cale could very well turn out to be "normal". On the other hand, it is frustrating because we have no way of predicting where he will be in ten, twenty, or even five years. I suppose this point is somewhat void considering no one is able to predict anything about the future, but it would provide a lot of comfort to both Alex and me if we even had a vague idea. To be honest, I haven't given this doctor appointment a lot of thought and now that we are less than 24 hours away I am getting a bit nervous. I'm nervous because this doctor might give us a diagnosis. What then? Maybe it's better not to know. Or what if she tells us that what we've been doing so far has been all wrong? I'm trying really hard not to let my mind wander but the paths of worry are pretty well traveled in my brain.

On another front, Alex's mom lives here and so that's who we've been staying with. We've had TONS of fun since we got here but I'll write more about that later. Please send a prayer our way as we seek out more answers tomorrow!

THANK YOU!