Satan's Grip

Today I had bible study up at the church.  I so look forward to Tuesday mornings.  Not only is there childcare for Cale but it's a great opportunity to be around adults.  The group of ladies that attend always give me a new or different perspective on things, which in my life is greatly appreciated.  There is a group of us that all have babies and sit at one table.  We rarely get new people to sit with us because the joke is that if you sit with us you might get pregnant.  Funny but possibly true.  

Anyhow, something was said today that I've always known but sometimes lose sight of.  We are studying about God's promises and the one we studied today was God's promise to give us rest.  When I think of "rest" the first couple of thoughts that come to mind are nap time and bed time.  Ha.  The kind of rest that God promises, though, is freedom from worry, despair, anger, etc.  The word that stands out to me is worry - in big, bold, black letters!  To anyone that knows me well knows I am the Queen of worrying, especially these days.  I worry about a large spectrum of things, from sharks in pools (yes, you read that correctly - sharks in pools!), jellyfish in the ocean, bears and mountain lions, to larger things such as the health of my family and the future for my son and daughter.  Worrying has the ability to paralyze me.  It wraps around me like a vine and holds tight.  I HATE to worry but am really horrible about not worrying.  "Just don't worry so much" is what I hear a lot but that is surely easier said than done.  With that being said, what was said today was that worrying comes from Satan.  Now, I KNOW this in my head but I often and easily forget it.  The thought that Satan has any control over me makes me angry.  It makes me want to do whatever possible to be released from his grip.  God is so much BIGGER than Satan.  God is on my side.  Satan has no place in my life.  

Wouldn't it be amazing to be at rest?  To be completely free?  I strive for this but am quickly realizing it's a choice that needs to be made daily, until "rest" takes on a different meaning to me than nap time. :)